What's it mean?

Is a question I've asked myself quite a bit lately. And maybe if anyone stumbles along this blog down the road, they'll wonder the same thing. What does this blog mean? What does it mean to be emptied? What about filled? 

First of all, being the planner that I am, I actually don't have a plan here. Shocking right? I don't have a plan for this blog. I've wanted to start one for a while now and fear kept holding me back. I was afraid of what people would think if they saw it. If they would think of me differently. But I decided to do it anyway, because it's not about other people. It's about God. So I'll see how this goes!
 
Second of all, I don't claim to be an expert on anything. At all. Not life. Not love. Especially not God. My horribly finite mind can't even wrap itself around Him most of the time. I'm young, I'm not even 20 years old yet. But I am living. I'm trying to figure all of this out, like everyone else. I don't have all the answers. But I'm on the journey, so maybe that's gives me a small say. Even so, these are my observations and how God is working in my life. Everyone's journey will be different. And that's what makes it so beautiful.

So why did I choose my blog name. Answer: I'm not really sure. I thought about it, and it made sense for the kind of things I would put on here. And it seemed pretty true of my life. So far I haven't been emptied of anything that God hasn't filled with something much greater. Moving away from home, break-ups, leaving friends behind. At the time, it's devastating. I'm not going to deny that. But when the smoke cleared, I sat up and realized I was ok. I survived. I not only survived, I was better than before. And not because of anything I did. God has provided for me in so many incredible and unexpected ways. 

And I really like this song called The Desert Song. It reminds me that no matter what is going on in my life, God is right there with me. The link is below. There's a verse that hits me everytime I hear it:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c3l1z7bXY9Y 

It seems to me that people in the Bible, and life even, show a constant struggle of emptying themselves to be filled with God. I must empty myself of my own desires. My own dreams. My own plans. And it's scary. It's so scary. But it's what I have to do. I know God has so much more in store for me than what I have for myself. Emptying myself is the only way to be filled with God. It's the only way to be truly living.

John 3:30 "He must become greater, I must become less."